18 January 2012

The necessity of loving yourself.

photo by gary barnes
I really do believe that womanhood is beautiful. I believe that a woman who has overcome a challenge is exceptionally beautiful, as is a bloated pregnant woman, a determined business woman, a I-haven't-showered-in-a-week mother-of-five, just about any woman. And men, too. People are beautiful. That's why my university studies are pointing me to a career in social services. And that's why I began the We Are Women Project, to celebrate the fact that we are beautiful individuals.

But as much as I believe these things wholeheartedly about others, that sentiment of beauty hasn't quite penetrated my own being. I never quite realized the depth of my own lack of self-worth until recently. I say "depth" because it extends even to my early childhood, when the foundation stone of my belief system was set. A simple statement based on simple childhood observations that continues to penetrate my thoughts and define my self-worth even to this present moment.

When this conclusion was made, I was advised to break down that foundation stone, then let everything above that settle gently down. Everything that has built upon that initial stone is so important, because it makes me who I am, but that initial negative statement needs to go.

I don't know if any of this is making sense, but that's where I am right now. I am learning how to live, thrive, and love myself. I think that's also part of the "I Am" project. Defining who we are. Discovering how beautiful we each are as individuals.

For more information and my progress with this topic, visit the apple a day blog.

2 comments:

Alicia Fish said...

It is so sad how we see the greatness and beauty in others but are so often blinded to our own greatness and beauty. Well written, Allison!

HollBurd said...

For some reason it is so easy to see the good and beautiful in others and so hard to see it in ourselves. I am the same way. I can love and be so forgiving of others, but when it comes to myself, I often feel like I am not as valuable as I really am. I am currently involved in a career of social work and I can tell you that it is such a hard thing to do, yet it is so much more rewarding. Great choice!